Well, it’s been an interesting couple of weeks. Suitor Co took themselves out of the running when they emailed to offer me a job, and when I asked for a written offer they asked for an immediate phone call. What is it that you don’t want to put into writing? The whole thing was beginning to drag on and not seem like it was going to work out so I wasn’t heartbroken that they pulled this stunt.

Internally, I interviewed last week for a position that remains in risk mitigation, but with a product focus instead of a seller focus. Either I’ve interviewed too many candidates or they didn’t bother to ask me anything challenging. I’m not sure which it is. But I walked out of the 5th hour of interviews thinking “Wow, that was wayyyyyy too easy.”

Of course, I am notoriously self-critical, so perhaps I did just shine like crazy. It helps that I know this area of the Cool Company very well. That familiarity probably erased whatever nerves I would have had.

Now my current organization has realized “Holy crap, she is seriously looking elsewhere!” and come to the table with a possible upgrade to my current role. There aren’t many details yet, but it’s been mentioned and I told the higher ups I’d consider it with a huge raise attached. They didn’t blink, so that’s a good sign.

All the negotiating and machinations aside, one thing has changed considerably while this has played out- how I react to it all. What is it that they say, the simplest truths are hardest to grasp? Something like that, I guess. My point is, I realize all of the angst and anger and frustration have been the result of my own choices to feel this way.

What I do for a living has a ton of implications for the business, and there is a lot of stress. We have to get things right more often when we get them wrong. But that doesn’t mean I have to lose my equilibrium when things go sideways, either.

There is much I can do nothing about, and there are things I can have a limited impact on; choosing my battles is becoming a more vital skill than ever. In ways I could not have foreseen two or three years ago.

So now we wait for the respective teams -current and possible future- to let me know their decisions. And if both are a go, then I have one HELL of a choice to make. Regardless of the path, I believe it will be good.

And that is an awesome space to be inhabiting, about now.